Everything's gonna go well

always feel life is not fair.
trying to be the best of the best, but always failed.

Well I feel like there are people who dont use at all here.

Sometimes I wonder what will become of me later? With every failure that I always get.

I cant give my future shadow later.

Whether I would be a good scholar fisheries, whether I would be the other, or whether I will become a loser who just talk and make nonsense during this life.

why all the hard work and sacrifice that I do not always tell? well maybe because I'm not grateful ..

okay, now it's time to rise from all this crap,make dreams come true and prove to others that I can, well I can ..

I hate it

Heart Language

Here I am, alone, staring at the ceiling, looking for something that is missing from this myself, but I do not know what it is ..
In the 4x5 meter box, I stuck with the seconds are always chasing me ..
I'm tired, tired of the monotony my life ..
I'm bored with all the drama that seemed ripped body and mind..
Why does life have to choose? choose to become an adult or juvenile, choose to harm and hurt..
Is this normal life?

What would you do if you know its the last time we're together?

I'll spend the rest of my time with you where we can laugh and joking together,waiting to see and see the sunset together,doing many stupid or crazy things and doing everything which we never do..but the last i'll say dont go,dont ever go,and tell you that i just deeply love you,too hard to losing you from my mind..

Anybody wants to save me?

This night again I couldnt sleep.
I dont know why this could occur.
Without dear's texting and dear all night unaccompanied.
Dear? I feel doesnt have a dear.
Function dear, what is it? Turn there really wants either, but the turn is needed even disappear.
So doubt whether she was a sincere or not? Or I was too selfish and impose the will?
I'm also confused why she's never jealous when I close with another woman.
I do not know.
What's certain migraine and tonight I could not sleep.
Anybody wants to save me?